as weird as this sounds, I’ve always wanted to be like lights (attitude wise) Ive always wanted to be the person whos constantly smiling, having fun, being positive, funny, creative. In reality I’m a depressed bitch lazy annoying stupid dumb ass! So as of tonight. I’m going to be like her. I’m going to be that person everyone wants to be around. I’m sick of being who I am, and i need to change (this is a positive not a negative)  Just needed to put it in writing.